In the centre of this, I constructed a funnel-shaped tube. I took the breast of a swan as my model for form. I invented a vessel with a round broad bow.
It pointed out to me in the most perfect manner how forces might be accumulated till they reached the Infinite, and then some occult voice whispered in my ear that I could place myself in a position antagonistic in power to the Deity himself.ĭay after day I thought over this phenomenon, and many were the experiments I performed, without once being able to find a flaw in my theory. Suddenly the whole matter appeared to me in so clear a light, and all its tremendous combinations were placed so perfectly before me, that I almost trembled at the power that appeared placed in my hands. I fought against the idea, but uselessly. Satan himself seemed to be incorporated in me, and told me how I could accomplish the destruction of the universe. This artificial stupor I continued to keep up for some minutes at last I was obliged to awake to the sad realities of life. I think I tried to believe I was under a delusion.
I lay there motionless as a corpse, and apparently tried to persuade myself I was asleep. One morning I heard the doctor’s knock at the door unwilling to be questioned by him at the time, a childish determination came over me to pretend to be asleep. Have yet a little patience, and I will prove it.‘ Indeed, you do me an in justice I am not mad. On glancing my eye over the few lines I have written, I cannot help suspecting, reader, that you have already begun to entertain a doubt of my sanity. She was incessantly bursting into tears, and frequently, when she imagined I was asleep, she appeared almost broken-hearted.
When I recovered my senses, I found a great change in my dear wife.
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